since losing weight sucks

And it's not going so well. I think I might make this a regular blog. I will still post weight loss info, but not just that. Myspace is really getting old for me. So I may move my blog over here eventually. For a while I will probably do dual posts.

Today has been a not so great day. I have had horrible anxiety and just a bad feeling all day long. I drank ALOT of caffeine today. I don't know if that has anything to do with it, but I just feel yucky. I did go shopping for a new outfit for Sarah and Josh's wedding. It is really cute! It was also half price. I LOVE KOHLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really really do. I could totally do some damage in that store if I'm not careful! I will be going back there pretty soon because they had winter coats half off. Both of my boys need winter coats, and they had some cute ones! I am trying to decide what I want to do with my hair. I was going to go bleach blonde with some pink tips (no I am not trying to be punk, I just think it's WAY cute!) But then today, I saw a picture of Avril Lavigne (sp?) and her hair was blonde with a little pink in it. So, I decided I didn't want that anymore. I'm weird, I know. I'm really wanting something new, I just don't know what. I may end up going a little darker for winter, and then may do the blonde/pink thing in the summer. I don't know, I'm just tired of my hair right now.

Dr. Apt tomorrow

I have been having some issues that sound a lot like I might have thyroid problems. I am going tomorrow to get it checked out. Hopefully they will figure it out, and I will not be so tired all the time, and maybe losing weight will be easier.

Grilled Chicken anyone

I met Joy at Arby's today for lunch. I was pretty much stressed about it last night and today. Just because I was thinking WHAT CAN I EAT THERE?!?!?!?!?!? So I got there and got grilled chicken sandwich with no mayo, and added some arby sauce to it. It wasn't terrible. Usually I HATE grilled chicken at fast food places, but this was tolerable. I didn't have anything else besides a drink. I can't wait for that scale to start showing some progress because I feel like I am doing really well.

Kill the TV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am hungry. Really hungry, but it's bed time and I am trying not to eat anything. Well, I am flipping thru the channels, and there is a show about the best BBQ in the country. I was literally drooling. It looked SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good!!! And KC even made the show as the best. Now I want...........

I measured my waist.................................

And it was TWO inches smaller than the last time I measured it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!! I didn't really measure anything else because I was in a hurry, but how cool is that!? I really feel that I am back on track. I really need to get to the gym more.

Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels....

I need to remember this tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! I am doing a home and garden party for a lady, and she is making yummy food!!! I can't blow it tomorrow, the past few days I have done awesome! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Down and out

I haven't written in a while. Mostly because the past few weeks, I have pretty much sucked. But, that's OK. I think I have gotten back on track now. :) I just want to stop thinking about it all the time. That is draining. Really draining. It seems that I spend (waste) a lot of time thinking, worrying, and obsessing about my weight, and dieting. I really feel that it is starting to interfere with other parts of my life, and I am tired of it. So I decided that I either just need to lose the weight, or stop worrying about it. And I think losing weight would be easier than not thinking about this crap all the time. I have also decided to do a food makeover for all of my family. This way, I am not always eating something different than everyone else. I will just cook better for everyone, and that will make it easier for me, and better for everyone. :) Hopefully, that will work.